Little Frustrations

Life has it's little frustrations; smiling at a stranger only to have them look at you like you're crazy, trying to merge onto the freeway but no one lets you in, asking simple questions in an effort to make conversation with a person but only getting single syllable answers. These things really piss me off and rather that scream and swear at the people who preform these acts of rudeness I just thought I used the internet as a way to vent. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww, well that feels better. Thank you!

I'm Selfish!

It's strange the changes we make as we grow older and mature into the people that we are meant to become. We have pit falls, we make mistakes, and we face things that we are positive we will never get through or recover from. We are presented with a number of paths to take and often aren't sure which one is the best. The challenges that arise in life come for each person at different times, seeing as how I'm 21, a junior college graduate, and about to make some very significant changes in my own young life. I seem to be facing such challenges, ie; where do i go from here? Do i want to go back to school? And what do I want to go back for?

It can be overwhelming trying to figure out my life, trying to maybe catch a glimpse of the future. I worry and wonder if the decisions I'm making in my day to day life are the right ones for me or for others. If you think about it thats a heck of a lot of pressure for a "kid" ( which is what I am to everyone I work with...).

And then it dawns on me... in the eyes of my family, my friends, and society in general I'm a freaking infant! And I don't have to have all of the answers right now I just have to know that I'm doing what's good for me.

One of my very favorite people in the world once told to be selfish, because this will be the only time in my life that I will ever get the chance to just care about ME...

Week One Down!

Well friends I have actually done it! I, Breann Nicole Perkins have successfully completed my first week as an official CNA. For those who are not familiar with this particular abbreviation it stands for Certified Nursing Assistant. My job basically consists of being ordered around by and doing everything RN's do not want to do.

I.E. bathing, changing, dressing, feeding, and all around taking care of people who need a little extra help. While some (including myself for a period of time) would consider this a demeaning, disgusting, or all around just awkward profession...I will say " Shame on you...and me ". I am being completely honest when I say that while I was incredibly excited that got the job I was scared out of mind that I would hate it! But i must say I have never enjoyed anything more, yes my job is hard and exhausting but it's fun and rewarding. I like knowing that in some small way I'm making someones day a little brighter.

Break for an experience from 06/26:

Last night while assisting a resident in preparing for bed, I was asked to take off her anti-embolic stockings ( socks that help prevent further swelling of already swollen legs. keeping individual from having dangerous blood clots form.). After removing them I noticed how tight and painfully swollen her feet and ankles were. So I offered her a foot massage for comfort. I have never seen anyone so happy. She thanked me profusely and said she'd never had one before, she then claimed to have become converted to "the foot massage revolution!" It was a nice feeling knowing I helped in that small way:)

So to wrap up, I LOVE my new job. Not only is the facility wonderful, but my coworkers are great as are the residents. Each day is a new adventure and a new learning experience that I am truly grateful to be part of.

I Couldn't sleep. So it was either this or knitting...

Ok it's 4:13 in the morning and I ( unfortunately) am still awake. You would think after an exhausting 8hr shift I would be ready to crash. And heres the crazy thing, I totally am I just have a billion and 4 things running through my mind. I just need to shut it down... so here's the question I'm posing this evening, night, morning...? When your mind won't turn off and allow you to sleep what do YOU do?

Oh and PS for those of you who are wondering where and and why I would be working an 8hr shift I was recently hired as a full time CNA for a healthcare facility in North Phoenix. And believe me when i tell you that my job is EXHAUSTING!

Clinical Adventures!

Ok so I haven't said much or anything at all about CNA clinicals... up until today I haven't wanted to, to be perfectly honest. I really, really, REALLY hate them as it turns out... Im sorry but it takes an incredibly special person to be able to work in a nursing home, nursing center, or hospice type facility. And come to find out, I am not that person. It's not that I don't like helping the residents, I do, most of them are pretty cool. it just makes me beyond sad, oh and nursing homes kind of suck. A smarter idea would be to get trained and take care of your loved ones at home...just my opinion sense actually working at one for 3 weeks!
Anyway I have something exciting to share (well exciting to me Iguess)!!! Today we got to have clinicals at the hospital! Now many of you might not care, but I was shocked that we got to go to the hospital because I was unaware that CNA's were able to work in hospitals. But they are, so i was so looking forward to today and as it turns outs I had good reason to be. Not only was it a huge learnig experience but I found out that as a CNA I can work in OB!! Thats rigth I can work in the maternity ward...and if you know me you know thats a HUGE deal :)
I spent 2 hours in OB today and I know forsure that I have to become a labor and delivery nurse. I actually got to help admit 2 pregnant women today, it was very exciting and educational! Just thought I would say my good new minute ;)

A little inspiration from Colbie Caillat...Lucky

Wow... it's been awhile, a long while sense I've been on here. But I was up and had the strangest urge to blog it out. And I will more than likely get asked a million questions about this specific entry, so for those who might actually read this... do me a favor and DON'T read INTO it!

Well like I said I was up, which is normal for me. But I'm listening to a song by Colbie Caillat and Jason Maraz ( for those who haven't listened to them, get from under your rock and get on google!) called "Lucky". The song is about being in love with your best friend, and how lucky to be that person who is in love with their best friend and all the great things go along with being in love with your best friend. And it dawned on me... What would it be like to be in love with your best friend? Now I know every married person that reads this is going to say, " Well Bre it's great, i mean I am in love with my best...I married my best friend!" And thats all well and great, but it's not what I'm talking about. I'm talking about that one person who has been your friend sense birth, the one you played with when you were 5, the one you went to high school with, the one can sit in silence with and feel perfectly normal with or totally crazy...whatever the occasion! That is the Best Friend I'm referring to.

Now most of you now that I have moved yet again... this time to Thatcher, AZ to go to school at EAC. Being that I'm here in yet ANOTHER small town, everyone knows each other including all my church leaders. Well today was my first Sunday at the singles ward down here and all the Bishops spoke in our combined Relief Society/Priesthood meeting ( there are 4 singles wards, but in the summer we all meet together). And wouldn't you know it the topic of choice for all 4 Bishops that spoke was....MARRIAGE!!! If that's not an obvious smack to all us single people... just kidding!
Anyways, yes the topic was marriage but along the lines of always keeping an eye out for the kind of person we want to spend eternity with. Which of course got me thinking about the list I had to make as a beehive talking about all the "qualities" I want in my future husband. I would share it, but I want to hold on to my dignity for just a little bit longer. So while I was pondering that ridiculous list, the Bishop of the 3rd ward got up to speak. And this is where the song reference comes in, he married is honest to goodness best friend! They knew each other as children, dated in high school and were married after his mission.

I LOVE THIS! How simple, yet complex, how beautiful yet messy! I mean you have to think that marrying your very best friend would be crazy amazing...the one person in the world who already knows your secrets before you tell them, who has seen the bad and ugly WAY before they see the good and beautiful. The one person who knows you inside and out, upside down and right side up. The one you shared gummy bears and crayons with before hugs and kisses. How...magical!

So you can understand why this song led my to pose this question... What would it be like to be in love with you best friend?

I think I pretty much envy those people who are lucky enough to marry their honest to goodness best friend :)

I'm back!

So have been a total slacker on this blog, and for those who actually care about my pathetic life and dont' fall asleep while reading it ( which can't be many of you...because I fall asleep just thinking about my life:( ) I apologize! So here are some highlights over the last month...I Went to AZ!! And oh my goodness it was awsome, Catleyn graduated ( who would have guessed that would happen :) JK Cate, I know you could do it!), Darce turned 16, and I got to see my entire psycho family(I also got to see Andy and his adorable girlfriend!) ! It was great... pictures anyone...

This Andy and Cam is girlfriend! She's Awsome!

My Birthday

I know I'm like 3 weeks late, but resently I celebrated my birthday!! Boy was it fun... me, Heidi, Ashleigh, Michelle (Jakes girlfriend), Jacob, and Camilla all went out to Big Juds!! Holy Crap it was good:)
On my birthday- birthday I havd a fabolous time with Jeff, Kristi, Jacob, and all the Girls!! They made it such a wonderful day for me!! And thank you to everyone who sent warm wishes, cards, flowers ( dad and Kim) and gift cards! ( mom and Brock!! I had great time and it was all because of you! I love you all

New Hair!!!

So like almost a month ago I got my hair trimed and my bangs cut...unfortunatly the lady who cut my hair ( bless her little heart) cut the bangs WAY TOO short:)

Luckly my hair grows pretty fast and now I LOVE my bangs!:)

I have always felt that Valentines Day was a useless holiday, I mean why celebrate an event only created on the basis of the more you buy your significant other the more you love them? And even worse, why celebrate a holiday that reminds me that I'm alone adn single...No thanks!

But there is one thing I ABSOLUTLY LOVE about this day dedicated to loving one another....Breakfast!

Oh but not just any breakfast, Valentines Day breakfast, every year my mom and dad would set up this fabulous display of love for me and siblings! And it was spectacular, pink and red everything... pancakes, milk, whipped cream, cereal, there were strawberries, rasberries, black berries, and all sorts of other fab food!

Holy Cow, and then there were the little presents they would get us, one year when I was like 6 or 7 years old, my dad brought back these cute little cowgirl outfits complete with red bandana skirt and little white blouse's with cowboy boots on them! That was a great V-Day! But what I -and every other girl on the planet- loved most was all the candy and chocolates!

So I guess it's safe to say that this Holiday isn't all that bad, as long as you know that it's not only ment for people in love, but kids too!

Big Judds = Big tummy aches!

Ok so I now its been awhile and I am very sorry for that, what with ALL the time I have. There is no excuse for me not writing other than the fact the I'm just tired and lazy:( But anyway here goes...

Almost a month ago me, Ash, and Heidi went the best burger joint on the planet...no lies this place makes In-N-Out look like garbage ( and if you know me I freaking LOVE In-N-Out Burger!) Let me show you why...

That thing is huge right!? Before you have a coronary, that particular 1lb burger was shared between the 3 of us! But holy cow, even just a third of that huge monster of a meal nearly killed me. But it was totally worth it because it was like celestial glory in your mouth, thats how INCREDIBLE it was:)

So as you can see...um... this gives a while new meaning to the term " Fatest Country"! But nonetheless, this outing was one of the funnest I've had in a long ol' time:) and we owe it all to our buddy Chris who celebrated his 23rd Birthday at Big Judd's! Thanks a million Chris...

I'm Back!`

Hello everyone, sorry it's taken me so gosh darn long to get a new blog out! I really have NO excuse other than the fact that I have been INCREDIBLY lazy that past month. What with being home for the holidays, seeing old friends, and just hanging out I have had no real desire to tell you all whats been happening. Oh and also...there wasn't really much to tell!But there is now! This is my best freind and new roommate Heidi Maria Corbett.... if you can't already tell, she's not a afraid of much. Even looking like a total goober:) But thats why we love her so.... This is my awsomely wonderful roommate Ashleigh...yes it's spelled correctly! Me, Ash, and Heidi are the definition of Coocoo Banana's! We are the stangest people you will ever meet, now some of you are thinking.."Breann, you're not strange or weird or akward ( well maybe that last one!)" And this very true, when I'm not around Heidi and Ashleigh I am quite normal...but they bring out the weird when we are all together. These girls make semester's fun and I am so happy to be back with them.

Finals Week AWAWAWAW!!!

Oh -My- Gosh!!!! It's freaking finals week and I'm about to pull out my splitended ( I now i spelt thids wrong, just go with it!), color fading hair!! ( see why I need your magical hair abilities Ann!!) I have 4-5 hours of studying for a chem final, 2 take home finals, one paper, a Child Development video to create... YIKES, and a partirge in cherry tree! ( we don't have pare trees here in rexburg...at least none that I've seen) So needless to say this is going to be a long week. Now I promise that I didn't write all of this to gain sympathy....trust sympathy is NOT going to help me!! But you prayers will, if you could spare 2 or 3 seconds to ask the Lord to keep me from jumping off the Top of the soon to be finished auditorim....it's huge! I would really appericiate it! :)

I sure can't wait to see all of you, LOVE YOU LOTS

Happy Birthday Loulou!!

Hi Loulou, I just wanted to wish you a very Happy 14th Birthday!

I love you sister and I can't wait to see you!!:)

But in the mean time here are 14 reasons why I Love You so stinking much!!

1. You always make me laugh

2. You have "genius" thumbs;)

3. Oh come on look at this face...... how could you NOT love you!4. You drop it like it's H-O-T!

5. You're 14 going on 24, but I still love you just the same

6. Your laugh

7. Your LOVE for A1 sauce.... it's actually kind of wierd!

8. The way you idolize Catelyn... strange and sometimes really creepy, but sweet very sweet

9.Bratz dolls, thats really all that needs to be said;)

10. Vanadlizer, Oprah, "shoulders on the table"....I think you get the point!!

11. You're helpful

12. Fun to be around

13. Chewing with your mouth open....it's nasty, but it's you!

and last but not least

14. You're MY little sister and I will ALWAYS love you...even if I don't always show it

Have a happy, happy, HAPPY Birthday

I LOVE YOU LOULOU!

We say Good Bye

Last night at 11:30 we lost Elder Joseph B. Wirthlin at the age of 91 years old.

He was the oldest of all the apostles.

You may remember his talk in the October 2008 Conference,

" Come What May, and Love It".

He spoke about having a good attitude in the face of adversity, depending on how we react to problems that arrive this will determine our happiness in this life.

And you know what...He is totally right!

Elder Wirthlin was definently inspired when he gave this talk, reacting in a pleasent way to soemthing terrible or sad, can really make a difference!

I have learned this princple and I am continuing to apply it to my every day life!

Don't you think you should try it too? :)

2 things...

Ok 2 things I would like to say...

First thing......

IT'S CHIRSTMAS TIME!!!!

Hurray Hurray for christmas time it's my absolute favorite time of year!!

there is just something so magical about this Holiday, especially when snow is involved:)BYU-I at christmas time is gorgeouse, the ligths, the activities, the people...

it's a Norman Rockwell painting come to life! And i just wanted to share my thought about this magnificant holiday with you:)

Now...for the second thing!

HELP!!!!!!

Annie, my most favorite person on the planet:)

I really need your help, you see I look awful...

My hair is gross, and because I have like NO money I haven't been able to get it done!

So i was wondering if you could please help me, and do me the biggest favor in the form of coloring, cutting, and styling my hair....it needs it....BADLY!

I pormise here and now that I will babysit, clean, or run as many errands as you see fit!

(sense you know I'm poor and can't pay you...sorry about that too)

You're the best please comment back

Happy Birthday Mama!!!

Hi mama!!! I thought I would take this oppprtunity to wish you the Happiest and Merriest of Birthdays! You are an incredable wife, mother, and friend....I love you with everything you have done, I don't know where I would be in this world without your constant love and compasion! I am sorry that your Brebutton ( um aka me...in case you forgot;)) couldn't be there to celebrate the BIG day with you!!!

I was thinking about past years adn I came up with 43 reasons why you are the worlds GREATEST Mom!

1. Becasue your mine...and I love you

2. You're a red head, and that fact in itself makes you AWSOME!!

3. You always try to make me laugh ( even if it means singing a ridiculouse song!)

4. Your faith

5. Your unflinching crewfew rules ( even as an adult I get in trouble for breaking crewfew :))

6. Sunday Roast....no explaination needed for this one!

7. And this moment in time was just funny...well at least to me! When you figure out why give me a call and we will remeness! (**hint....it took 2 weeks to get that pink cast!;)

8. Your love for avacodos....used to be strange, but your bad habits have rubbed off on your first born! Thanks a lot!

9.The way you eat the avacodos with nothing but salt and pepper ( this however is still VERY strange!)

10. Your smile

11. Your face...it's just B-E-A-utiful:)

12. They way you jam out in the car.... it's funny, but AWSOME!

13. The way you laughed SO hard when we saw "Juno" together!!! ( I think everyone in the theater new you liked the movie!)

14. Your motherly goodness

15. You gave up your addictions.....Diet Coke, Chai Teas, Wetting your pants every 20 minutes..

16. Your acrilic nails, when I think mom I think magnificanlty manicured fingers

17. And perfectly pedicured toes!

18. Your will power...at least someone in our family exercises!

19. The way we can share clothes...not many moms have that ability to share clothes with their daughters ( I think it's just a Champman thing)

20. Your crazy psychic ability to know when I'm sad or ticked!!! It's uncany;)

21. You and mangos, I have NO idea where or when this new obsession started... but hey, whatever floats your boat!

22. You taught me to cook....enough said

23. You introduced me to John Mayer!

24. You can make me laugh and cry at the same time...go figure!!

25. Your good example of what a mother should be

26. You passed on your love of children to me!

27. Your furry lip ( thats for you Zachy!!)

28. Taking us ( and when I say us I mean Elsie!) to school in your sweaty running close!

29. Have a Jeffery as your older brother automatically makes you awsome!

30. You love Christmas...Just like ME!!

31. Lovely singing voice, especially when you sing Mary's Lullaby

32. Pulling me out of school to eat lunch with me

33. You have excellent running form!!

34. You buy all of us seperate beds, and yet we all end up in the same one35. You made me a poodle skirt, that to this day I still LOVE!

36. You LOVE the Office.....that what she said!

37. Your nickname " Kelly-Belly- Button"...awsome, awsome

38. The Promise you made me when I was just a wee babe

39. The way you always give my hand a little sqeeze!

40. My promise ring!

41. Your 12 hour prayers, I love those, especially when I'm in a hurry or freakin tired!

42. Your incouraging words

and last but not least

43. The way you try every day to be better than you were yesturday!

I love you so very, very much!! Have a fabulous day and I'll be thinking about you!

Love always Bre

Life without a Phone!:(

If you know me at all you know that I Totally love my Phone!

Well with that being said, I have recently had bumber thing happen...... my phone was shut off, as in my service!! It all started on Tuesday of this past week, I kept trying to check Rexburg weather ( cause it was supposed to SNOW that day :)). But anywhoozer, when I went to check the weather, or get on the internet, or make a Phone Call

my just would not work. So need less to say I have been going coo coo banana's these last few days with no way to communicate with ouside world, that is AZ!!! So to anyone of you who have been trying to reach me....I am so incredably sorry, but I will not be reached until Monday (sometime)! And I would call all of you, but how "awsome" is this....the phone in my apartment does not let me call you guys long distance....oh but wait ..you can call me:)

Go give me a ring...I miss y'all

(208)486-1646

I am truly blessed! I know, I know that sounds so...well obviouse! But it is the unflinching truth, and let me explain why. This whole experence has taught me so many things, patients is a big one! For those that knew me prior to coming up here, you know that I was NOT in any way, shape, or form a patient person! And while I"m on the subject I want to apologize to all my siblings for every time I lost my temper when I was at home. I wasn't in a good place in high school and I know that that is NO excuse, but I really am very sorry. Especially to Zachary, I'm so sorry little brother, I love you so much and I regret so much every time I was short with you or hurt your feelings! I promise to be better, because I have learned patients, I have also learned not to pre-judge. I've learned that getting to know people and figuring out who they are and what they're all about is really what needs to happen. But the biggest thing I've learned is forgivness, the power that lies behind this principle is incredible. I resently had to write a paper for my religion class on this principle. Essentially we had to pick something that we wanted to learn more about, and forgivness was something I felt I needed to understand better. I did some research, read some articles, and foud for myslef what the treu meaning was. The paper became very easy to write after that, it was much like writting a talk! I would share it on my blog, but I can't add an attachment. But if anyone would like a copy ( don't feel like you HAVE to read it) just email me at breperkins@gmail.com or per08004@byui.edu! I am greatful for all that has happened in my life sense coming here, this place and the Spirit of Ricks will always a hold a very special place in my heart:)

Oh P.S. I know that some of you have been wanting my address, sorry it has taken so long to get it to you.
BYU-Idaho
Annie S. Kerr Hall #139
Rexburg, ID 83440