Little Frustrations

Life has it's little frustrations; smiling at a stranger only to have them look at you like you're crazy, trying to merge onto the freeway but no one lets you in, asking simple questions in an effort to make conversation with a person but only getting single syllable answers. These things really piss me off and rather that scream and swear at the people who preform these acts of rudeness I just thought I used the internet as a way to vent. Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww, well that feels better. Thank you!

I'm Selfish!

It's strange the changes we make as we grow older and mature into the people that we are meant to become. We have pit falls, we make mistakes, and we face things that we are positive we will never get through or recover from. We are presented with a number of paths to take and often aren't sure which one is the best. The challenges that arise in life come for each person at different times, seeing as how I'm 21, a junior college graduate, and about to make some very significant changes in my own young life. I seem to be facing such challenges, ie; where do i go from here? Do i want to go back to school? And what do I want to go back for?

It can be overwhelming trying to figure out my life, trying to maybe catch a glimpse of the future. I worry and wonder if the decisions I'm making in my day to day life are the right ones for me or for others. If you think about it thats a heck of a lot of pressure for a "kid" ( which is what I am to everyone I work with...).

And then it dawns on me... in the eyes of my family, my friends, and society in general I'm a freaking infant! And I don't have to have all of the answers right now I just have to know that I'm doing what's good for me.

One of my very favorite people in the world once told to be selfish, because this will be the only time in my life that I will ever get the chance to just care about ME...

Week One Down!

Well friends I have actually done it! I, Breann Nicole Perkins have successfully completed my first week as an official CNA. For those who are not familiar with this particular abbreviation it stands for Certified Nursing Assistant. My job basically consists of being ordered around by and doing everything RN's do not want to do.

I.E. bathing, changing, dressing, feeding, and all around taking care of people who need a little extra help. While some (including myself for a period of time) would consider this a demeaning, disgusting, or all around just awkward profession...I will say " Shame on you...and me ". I am being completely honest when I say that while I was incredibly excited that got the job I was scared out of mind that I would hate it! But i must say I have never enjoyed anything more, yes my job is hard and exhausting but it's fun and rewarding. I like knowing that in some small way I'm making someones day a little brighter.

Break for an experience from 06/26:

Last night while assisting a resident in preparing for bed, I was asked to take off her anti-embolic stockings ( socks that help prevent further swelling of already swollen legs. keeping individual from having dangerous blood clots form.). After removing them I noticed how tight and painfully swollen her feet and ankles were. So I offered her a foot massage for comfort. I have never seen anyone so happy. She thanked me profusely and said she'd never had one before, she then claimed to have become converted to "the foot massage revolution!" It was a nice feeling knowing I helped in that small way:)

So to wrap up, I LOVE my new job. Not only is the facility wonderful, but my coworkers are great as are the residents. Each day is a new adventure and a new learning experience that I am truly grateful to be part of.

I Couldn't sleep. So it was either this or knitting...

Ok it's 4:13 in the morning and I ( unfortunately) am still awake. You would think after an exhausting 8hr shift I would be ready to crash. And heres the crazy thing, I totally am I just have a billion and 4 things running through my mind. I just need to shut it down... so here's the question I'm posing this evening, night, morning...? When your mind won't turn off and allow you to sleep what do YOU do?

Oh and PS for those of you who are wondering where and and why I would be working an 8hr shift I was recently hired as a full time CNA for a healthcare facility in North Phoenix. And believe me when i tell you that my job is EXHAUSTING!